Topic: No beginners luck for me...
Let me start by saying that this whole process has completly humbled me. I have a new found respect for anyone who has traveled this road before me. TTC is no joke. The emotional rollercoaster is something I really thought i was prepared for and strong enough to handle with grace. Boy was I wrong. I now understand why some couples choose to keep everything top secret until they are almost showing. Nothing worst than laying in bed bawling your eyes out and getting several text asking if it 'worked yet'. Those looks of sympathy are enough to make you wanna punch your best friend AND your mom square in the face lol. And I was arrogant enough to start a youtube channel documenting every step... and then had the nerve to leave everyone hanging while I 'figured things out'. I never thought I would feel this way. I will never start testing that early again (7dpo). I went through about $80 worth of those things before I accepted there was a line but it was just an indent. Damn FRERs.
I'm ready to move on to next cycle, picked a new donor and I am glad that last cycle taught me not to put to much energy into that. I was able to narrow it down to 2 guys with in about 30 mins instead of the month and 1/2 process I went through last time. And the learning continues. I know everything happens for a reason. Here's to all the mommas in the making. If no one else feels your pain, I do.
5/12 At home cycle #1 (3 vials): BFN 6/12 At home cycle #2 (2 vials): BFN 7/12 Found RE/ took cycle off 8/12 Unmed/ IUI #1: BFN 9/12 Clomid/ IUI: cancelled due to Hurricane Isaac 10/12 Clomid/IUI #2:BFP!!!!!!