Topic: Pity Party
Triple whammy yesterday: I came home from work to a baby shower invite in the mail. Then another friend posted her gender/baby name announcement on FB, and a THIRD friend posted their u/s announcing they're having twins.
DP is out of town for the week, so it was a rough and lonely night. I feel like such an awful person for being jealous, when my friends' baby joys are not about me. Intellectually I know that, but it's still really painful. Right now it feels like everyone in the world is getting to have a baby except me. And I WANT to celebrate with them. If I was still pregnant right now (or not trying to TTC) I'd be over the moon with happiness for all of them. Instead I just feel like a rotten human being, and I don't know how to change my bad attitude. Is it possible to have a good attitude about something while feeling miserable about it?
We're hoping to go back to Greece next month. I almost have enough money saved. I've been really sick for almost two weeks, and I guess I can be grateful that I can take regular cold medicine and not have to worry that it might be doing harm to a pregnancy... but I am feeling really tired, run-down and discouraged today. SIGH.
Thanks for being a safe place to vent this kind of thing <3