I want to second yfnr and storkhunting. Breastfeeding IS very hard and it is super time consuming. Anyone who knows me, knows that I am very pro-breastfeeding, but I am also pro-health (for everyone!) and pro choice. That being said, breastfeeding definitely has tons of it's own rewards, and in a perfect world, it would be easy and the only way for everyone, but unfortunately life isn't perfect and it simply isn't for everyone. I completely agree with making smaller goals for yourself. If next week is too far away, say tomorrow instead and see how you feel tomorrow. If you truly feel you need something to change, instead of stopping cold turkey, which will also be hard on you physically, I would suggest just supplementing. Either with pumped milk or with formula. For me, I hated pumping and only did it to try and boost my supply and not for feeding, because you're still tied to something - only it's to a bulky pump instead of your baby, and after the pumping, baby still needs to be fed. (I'm talking more about as a long term solution here, where you will be alone much of the time with both boys and pumping wouldn't give you more time with B, etc) Since I had supply issues, I was forced to supplement with formula, and although I did everything possible to exclusively breastfeed, it simply wasn't happening. When I accepted that this was how it was going to be, we made the best of it and it actually worked nicely. I still breastfed several times a day and some feedings were formula. Before bedtime, he always had breast and bottle. He loved nursing, and preferred it, but took his bottle fine as well. I still got the bonding and experience of nursing, and he was able to get the benefits of breast milk, even though it wasn't exclusive. Was it perfect? No, but it was perfect for us, because it was what worked for us.
If you truly want to do it, then I would suggest pumping here and there so Ali can help out, and so you can get out alone with B also. But if it's going to make you frustrated, and unhappy, that will ultimately affect little guy also, as well as putting you at a higher risk for postpartum depression and your health is very important also! Like yfnr said, breastfeeding really should be a mutually rewarding experience and if it's not, that will affect both of you negatively also. Most of all, remember that you're an amazing Mama!! Whatever decision you make will be in the best interest of your family, and don't let anyone or anything make you feel like you are less for any decision you make. And ANY amount of breast milk is better than none - you're giving Y a good strong start, no matter if you quit now, at 6 weeks, 6 months or a year. ((Hugs!!) you know I'm here if you need to vent or just chat.
After 9 yrs & 1 devastating loss, we got our BFP at 9DPO ~ and welcomed our beautiful son on Halloween! Best treat ever!!