51 (edited by ana8284 2014-07-01 09:28:32)

Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

Having a bit of self doubt and anxiety today for some reason. I think I just feel like I'm destined to be disappointed again. I really hope that is not the case, but just feeling a litle down. A friend whom I haven't seen in a few months came by last night and she started talking about how several of our college friends are pregnant with their second or third child and how everytime she hears about someone she can't help but think about my DW and I and how great we will be as parents and how unfair it is that it hasn't happened for us yet. I was telling her how if the next couple of times don't work we will probably start down the adoption route and she kept saying "no you can't give up you are going to have a baby of your own". While I appreciate her positivity I think it started me on the self doubting route again because no one can guarantee that I will ever be pregnant or give birth. I read a quote recently that said "Faith in God also means faith in his timing." I am trying so hard to stick to those words and keep the faith that it will happen, but some days it's just so hard to do.

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IUI #1- 07/12-BFN, IUI #2 08/12-BFN, ICI at home 10/12- BFN, Back to Back IUI #3 08/13-BFN, IUI #4 09/13-BFN, IUI #5 03/14- BFN, IUI #6 05/14- BFN, IUI #7 06/14-BFN
KD-10/14-BFN KD-12/14-BFN IUI #8 3/15 BFN, IUI #9 4/15 BFN, IUI #10 6/17 BFN
Potential Adoptive Parents- Baby Due November 2017!
IUI #8 04/15- BFN

Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

Good news today in case this cycle didn't work, the clinic that I go to got their fertility drug grant funding back so I can move on to injectibles if need be and actually be able to afford them! The pens are about $10 each which of course is so much better than several hundred dollars. I'm really hoping to not need them, but if I do at least I know they are there. I'm feeling a bit better today, had a bit of bloating and cramping yesterday but I'm trying not to read into anything. I'm only 6dpi today but it's taking everything in my power to not pee on something. I'm used to testing my trigger out which I think is probably really just an excuse to test daily for me, but I'm really trying to not test at all until at least 13dpi. In other news the house appraisal was completed today and the appraiser loved it so I'm hopeful that comes back where we need it to.

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IUI #1- 07/12-BFN, IUI #2 08/12-BFN, ICI at home 10/12- BFN, Back to Back IUI #3 08/13-BFN, IUI #4 09/13-BFN, IUI #5 03/14- BFN, IUI #6 05/14- BFN, IUI #7 06/14-BFN
KD-10/14-BFN KD-12/14-BFN IUI #8 3/15 BFN, IUI #9 4/15 BFN, IUI #10 6/17 BFN
Potential Adoptive Parents- Baby Due November 2017!
IUI #8 04/15- BFN

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I'm trying so hard to stay positive,  keep my mind off of things and not symptom spot. My nips started getting sore at 4dpo but as of this morning they stopped. I'm thinking it was just ovulation soreness and I'm trying to keep my head up that maybe it doesn't mean anything but I'm so afraid of being disappointed again.

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IUI #1- 07/12-BFN, IUI #2 08/12-BFN, ICI at home 10/12- BFN, Back to Back IUI #3 08/13-BFN, IUI #4 09/13-BFN, IUI #5 03/14- BFN, IUI #6 05/14- BFN, IUI #7 06/14-BFN
KD-10/14-BFN KD-12/14-BFN IUI #8 3/15 BFN, IUI #9 4/15 BFN, IUI #10 6/17 BFN
Potential Adoptive Parents- Baby Due November 2017!
IUI #8 04/15- BFN

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My mom is here visiting and must have asked me 3 or 4 times already if I'm pregnant. I haven't told her we insemmed again and I plan to keep it that way for now. She thinks just because I pee a lot and have been tired today that I'm with child (which I hope I am but both of those things are normal for me ). I hope I can give her good news soon but in the meantime I'm trying to keep my sanity and not read into things especially things that are normal for me any way!

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IUI #1- 07/12-BFN, IUI #2 08/12-BFN, ICI at home 10/12- BFN, Back to Back IUI #3 08/13-BFN, IUI #4 09/13-BFN, IUI #5 03/14- BFN, IUI #6 05/14- BFN, IUI #7 06/14-BFN
KD-10/14-BFN KD-12/14-BFN IUI #8 3/15 BFN, IUI #9 4/15 BFN, IUI #10 6/17 BFN
Potential Adoptive Parents- Baby Due November 2017!
IUI #8 04/15- BFN

Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

So I caved and tested BFN. I know it's only 10dpi and I'm not completely out yet, this process is just so trying. I'm trying to remain patient and know when the time was right it will happen but I just don't know that I'm ready to face another birthday childless.

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IUI #1- 07/12-BFN, IUI #2 08/12-BFN, ICI at home 10/12- BFN, Back to Back IUI #3 08/13-BFN, IUI #4 09/13-BFN, IUI #5 03/14- BFN, IUI #6 05/14- BFN, IUI #7 06/14-BFN
KD-10/14-BFN KD-12/14-BFN IUI #8 3/15 BFN, IUI #9 4/15 BFN, IUI #10 6/17 BFN
Potential Adoptive Parents- Baby Due November 2017!
IUI #8 04/15- BFN

Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

Having a rough morning. BFN again today at 13dpo, AF due to rear her ugly head tomorrow. I just don't know if I can handle another round of treatment. This was my 7th IUI and I really thought this would be it. Physically, financially, emotionally I just don't think I can keep doing this. I'm a very optimistic happy person, but this process has shaken me to my very core. It's made me question my faith, especially after I saw not 1 but 2 stories on the news in the past 24 hours of parents killing their beautiful babies because they decided they didn't want them anymore. It just seems so unjust that these angels are given to parents who do not appreciate the gift they have been given and those of us who want a child more than anything cannot conceive. I'm going to set up an appointment with one of our local adoption agencies and maybe get the process started there as much as it kills me to give up on having a child of my own, I just don't know that I can do this anymore.

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IUI #1- 07/12-BFN, IUI #2 08/12-BFN, ICI at home 10/12- BFN, Back to Back IUI #3 08/13-BFN, IUI #4 09/13-BFN, IUI #5 03/14- BFN, IUI #6 05/14- BFN, IUI #7 06/14-BFN
KD-10/14-BFN KD-12/14-BFN IUI #8 3/15 BFN, IUI #9 4/15 BFN, IUI #10 6/17 BFN
Potential Adoptive Parents- Baby Due November 2017!
IUI #8 04/15- BFN

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Well so far I'm in a better place than I was Wednesday even though my hormones are playing serious tricks on me and it's not cool. So I'm 15dpi today and AF has yet to arrive. I took another HPT this morning negative so I called the doctor and they sent me for a blood draw. Several hours later, BFN. If I don't start by Tuesday they want me to come get checked out. I feel mostly okay but have had some mild cramping since 10dpi and I cannot shake this runny nose and sneezing (even though I feel fine). I am kicking myself however for being stupid and impatient and performing a "Q-Tip Test" this morning which I've done before but always sitting on the toilet and today I did it standing up and accidentally started putting it in the wrong hole and now my pee burns like crazy. Hopefully it will subside soon, as it is definitely adding insult to injury.

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IUI #1- 07/12-BFN, IUI #2 08/12-BFN, ICI at home 10/12- BFN, Back to Back IUI #3 08/13-BFN, IUI #4 09/13-BFN, IUI #5 03/14- BFN, IUI #6 05/14- BFN, IUI #7 06/14-BFN
KD-10/14-BFN KD-12/14-BFN IUI #8 3/15 BFN, IUI #9 4/15 BFN, IUI #10 6/17 BFN
Potential Adoptive Parents- Baby Due November 2017!
IUI #8 04/15- BFN

Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

AF finally decided to grace me with her presence this morning. Just glad to get the wondering out of the way! Now to figure out next steps.

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IUI #1- 07/12-BFN, IUI #2 08/12-BFN, ICI at home 10/12- BFN, Back to Back IUI #3 08/13-BFN, IUI #4 09/13-BFN, IUI #5 03/14- BFN, IUI #6 05/14- BFN, IUI #7 06/14-BFN
KD-10/14-BFN KD-12/14-BFN IUI #8 3/15 BFN, IUI #9 4/15 BFN, IUI #10 6/17 BFN
Potential Adoptive Parents- Baby Due November 2017!
IUI #8 04/15- BFN

59 (edited by ana8284 2014-07-15 08:08:22)

Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

Well we went to a consultation meeting with a local adoption agency last night and to say I am overwhelmed is severly an understatement. We went to an open Q&A forum a few months back so we knew it wasn't going to be a walk in the park, but boy I was not expecting all that came with it. Granted I fully understand why they have to do what they do and I think it's very important, but just coming off of another disappointment from IUI I don't think I was fully prepared or ready to be bombarded with all of the information I received. Hindsight is 20/20 I guess, but I should have waited another week or so instead of going in with emotions still raw. We are meeting our potential known donor on the 26th which is exciting and nerve wrecking all at the same time. I feel like I'm going on a first date or something. I'm just feeling really battered and bruised and I am beginning to wonder if I will ever become a mother, if it's even in the cards for me. Working in a hospital definitely doesn't help. I'm not an envious person by nature but seeing pregnant women and babies all day really takes its toll. Just feeling really defeated and hopeless which is not the type of person I want to be. Thank God my area RESOLVE meeting is tonight.

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IUI #1- 07/12-BFN, IUI #2 08/12-BFN, ICI at home 10/12- BFN, Back to Back IUI #3 08/13-BFN, IUI #4 09/13-BFN, IUI #5 03/14- BFN, IUI #6 05/14- BFN, IUI #7 06/14-BFN
KD-10/14-BFN KD-12/14-BFN IUI #8 3/15 BFN, IUI #9 4/15 BFN, IUI #10 6/17 BFN
Potential Adoptive Parents- Baby Due November 2017!
IUI #8 04/15- BFN

Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

I really don't know what to do. I haven't even been able to look at the adoption folder since I opened it and looked at it for a few minutes on Monday. And then I just got an e-mail from my friend that just adopted last week outlining all of the ins and outs they went through in the adoption process and it makes me feel like my head is going to explode. Every hour of every day I think about having a family and I just can't imagine not trying to adopt at this point in time but at the same time the thought of going through all of this makes me feel ill. I'm so overwhelmed it's not even funny. I'm not a quitter but I just don't think I can keep doing fertility treatments and getting nowhere. I would be willing to try IVF but it's of course not guaranteed either and financially we can't afford to spend all of that money on something that may not happen. I went to my RESOLVE meeting last night and it was going to get all of my feelings out on the table, but then I heard the stories of the other women there all of them had been through multiple fertility treatments including IVF and all of them had miscarried on multiple occassions. I just can't imagine what going through that does to you especially more than once. I find myself becoming bitter and synical which I hate more than anything. The see the optimistic and hopeful person that I normally am slipping further and further away and I don't know how to get her back.

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IUI #1- 07/12-BFN, IUI #2 08/12-BFN, ICI at home 10/12- BFN, Back to Back IUI #3 08/13-BFN, IUI #4 09/13-BFN, IUI #5 03/14- BFN, IUI #6 05/14- BFN, IUI #7 06/14-BFN
KD-10/14-BFN KD-12/14-BFN IUI #8 3/15 BFN, IUI #9 4/15 BFN, IUI #10 6/17 BFN
Potential Adoptive Parents- Baby Due November 2017!
IUI #8 04/15- BFN

Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

Hi there! Just wanted to chime in and let you know that I feel for you - I often feel like my personality has been destroyed by my infertility and that I'm a cynical and angry person now. We looked into adoption awhile ago and the most helpful resources for us were adoptive families magazine and the book 'you can adopt!' - we ultimately decided that adoption isn't for us and began treatment with an RE, but those things really helped me sort out my feelings and feel less overwhelmed in my adoption research.

TTC since September 2007 - 8 donor insems in 2012, all BFN. DH had varicocele repair #2 1/3/14.
It worked! Two clomid cycles and two IUI's with injectables all BFN, on to IVF! 3dt of 2 perfect embryos on 12/15/14, BFP 7dp3dt! Frederick Lars born at 37 weeks on 8/15/15!! FET for #2 on 9/29/16 - BFP 5dp5dt!! Bertram Wilder and Mabel Moon born at 28.4 weeks on 3/29/17!

Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

It took us 8 at home attempts, 2 RE IUI's and a round of IVF to finally get pregnant. believe me, this forum is filled with people who feel like you do. You talked a lot about adoption because IVF is too expensive and not a guarantee. Not to be a negative nellie, but adoption is crazy expensive and is also not a guarantee. Personally, before I went the adoption route (especially being a same sex couple - which depending on where you live can make things very difficult) I would at least have all of the tests run and have a fertility Dr evaluate your chances with IVF. Everyone on this forum, for the most part, that has done IVF also had a post about "how in the world am I going to be able to afford this". You plan, you save, you ask for help from family, you take out a fertility loan - you just make it work.

TTC #1: BFP Cycle #11 IVF (2014)
TTC #2: IVF April 2017
             BFP: FET Due February 2018

Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

Thanks ladies sorry for the delayed response, I've been out of town. Thank you for your support and encouragement.  I guess my thing with adoption vs IVF costs right now at least is other than the home study and the attorney retainer fee we aren't out a ton of money until there is a potential child in place since we are doing most of the leg work ourselves.  I think though too emotionally going through IVF if it didn't work I would be devastated which I know is a possibility no matter which route we go but I just can't think about going through IVF right now. We are still looking at a known donor so that is still an option too, I'm just kind of overwhelmed with everything now especially after spending the weekend with my pregnant 19yo sister-in-law.

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IUI #1- 07/12-BFN, IUI #2 08/12-BFN, ICI at home 10/12- BFN, Back to Back IUI #3 08/13-BFN, IUI #4 09/13-BFN, IUI #5 03/14- BFN, IUI #6 05/14- BFN, IUI #7 06/14-BFN
KD-10/14-BFN KD-12/14-BFN IUI #8 3/15 BFN, IUI #9 4/15 BFN, IUI #10 6/17 BFN
Potential Adoptive Parents- Baby Due November 2017!
IUI #8 04/15- BFN

Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

Hi ana8284, Just wanted to say hi and that I am still thinking about you. All your options sound really overwhelming right now and it is just exacerbated by the fact that nothing is guaranteed. This process is the worst...like pull your hair out, have a tantrum, and cry for days on end. If I were in your shoes, I would take a few days off and not think about any of the options. Just clear my head and then on the third day, I make pros and cons lists because it helps organize my mind. Maybe finding a way to relax a little will help your mind see all the possibilities more clearly. (Way easier said than done!)

Prior to getting pregnant, my sister, my SIL, supervisor at work, friend, and wife's BFF all had babies a few months apart from each other. Now, my best friend is in the same boat where I, her niece, supervisor, and several co-workers are all pregnant. She is having a really tough time with it all but I told her that maybe before you get pregnant you have to be tortured by everyone else being pregnant as a right of passage or something.  wink

TTC #1: 1-5 BFN; 6- BFP
TTC #2: since June 2016...

Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

Thanks patienceisavirtue, I really appreciate your thoughts! You are right and that is exactly what I had decided to do. I still haven't reopened the adoption paperwork and we are meeting the potential known donor on Saturday for dinner. I then have set up an appointment with a therapist who specializes in infertility but has been through the adoption process herself for August 4th. I am going to wait until after my appointment with her for my wife and I to start the decision process so I can allow myself to recover a bit and clear my mind. My 30th birthday is on the 2nd so I've decided I'm going to treat myself that weekend and go do some pampering and then I have a massage booked on the 4th after my therapist appointment to hopefully let some of the stress melt away! Thanks again to everyone for your support and encouragement, I truly hope that one day no matter which way it comes I'll be able to know that I got through this and am now a mother.

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IUI #1- 07/12-BFN, IUI #2 08/12-BFN, ICI at home 10/12- BFN, Back to Back IUI #3 08/13-BFN, IUI #4 09/13-BFN, IUI #5 03/14- BFN, IUI #6 05/14- BFN, IUI #7 06/14-BFN
KD-10/14-BFN KD-12/14-BFN IUI #8 3/15 BFN, IUI #9 4/15 BFN, IUI #10 6/17 BFN
Potential Adoptive Parents- Baby Due November 2017!
IUI #8 04/15- BFN

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Hopefully all the plans you have in place will help you sort through all the options you have available. It sounds like you will have some fun soon and be able to relax. Enjoy! And happy early birthday! I got my BFP 4 days before my 30th so maybe being 30 will be a good thing!  big_smile

TTC #1: 1-5 BFN; 6- BFP
TTC #2: since June 2016...

67 (edited by ana8284 2014-07-24 05:58:24)

Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

Leo horoscope for Jul 24 2014
A watched pot never boils. A trip to someplace exciting or longed for seems endless until you arrive. You are now immersed in a journey of some kind, Leo, though it probably isn't a physical journey where you travel from here to there. It is something that you began way back when, and it seems to be taking forever to reach your destination - but that's only because you have such a deep longing for it. Stop concentrating on the time and the process itself, and try to enjoy the experience of it instead. You will get there.


Well I definitely hope that the above is true! I have to say that I'm feeling a bit encouraged today. We had our first e-mail conversation with our potential Known Donor yesterday and so far I'm feeling very optimistic about the possibilities. I sent him a draft of the donor agreement and of course we discussed STD and genetic testic all of which at this point he is good with. He unfortunately is unable to meet with us this weekend to discuss more as we originally planned and so it's going to be mid August before we can meet but we are having some good back and forth coversations and he seems to take this very seriously and understands his role as a donor. As I've mentioned before he is a longtime friend of a friend so at least we have someone to vouch for him. It's looking like at least September or October that we will be able to start this process if all works out but I have hope for the first time in a few weeks!

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IUI #1- 07/12-BFN, IUI #2 08/12-BFN, ICI at home 10/12- BFN, Back to Back IUI #3 08/13-BFN, IUI #4 09/13-BFN, IUI #5 03/14- BFN, IUI #6 05/14- BFN, IUI #7 06/14-BFN
KD-10/14-BFN KD-12/14-BFN IUI #8 3/15 BFN, IUI #9 4/15 BFN, IUI #10 6/17 BFN
Potential Adoptive Parents- Baby Due November 2017!
IUI #8 04/15- BFN

Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

If you have only tried 7 times, I wouldn't think it was time to throw in the towel and give up (not that adoption is giving up - for the record).

Have you had a HSG run? and all of your blood work? Maybe you said so above, but I didn't catch that.

I know it can be frustrating when people get pregnant after 1 or 2 attempts, but by and large, most people take much longer. It took us 11 attempts and the 11th try was IVF. Our hetero friends have taken a year or more. Most women on this forum have had it take about a year or more.

Hang in there. I know firsthand how heart breaking it is, but don't give up hope.

TTC #1: BFP Cycle #11 IVF (2014)
TTC #2: IVF April 2017
             BFP: FET Due February 2018

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Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

Hi kelleymel! Just added to my post from earlier. All 7 times have been with the RE so that's more where we were having our frustrations from is how much longer are we going to keep paying for the drugs and the u/s monitoring and the procedure before we move on to something else. Not to mention the emotional toll that I've been through every time we've done it.  I have had an HSG run which showed no blockages. My only known fertility struggle other than not having access to sperm is PCOS. We are looking at the option of the known donor which I'm feeling encouraged about and we are thinking we will simultaneously start the adoption process so that way  if we do get pregnant the home study part will be over for my wife hopefully opening the door to her adopting our child once it's born, if we don't get pregnant then we would be already in the running to adopt. Thanks for your encouragement!

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IUI #1- 07/12-BFN, IUI #2 08/12-BFN, ICI at home 10/12- BFN, Back to Back IUI #3 08/13-BFN, IUI #4 09/13-BFN, IUI #5 03/14- BFN, IUI #6 05/14- BFN, IUI #7 06/14-BFN
KD-10/14-BFN KD-12/14-BFN IUI #8 3/15 BFN, IUI #9 4/15 BFN, IUI #10 6/17 BFN
Potential Adoptive Parents- Baby Due November 2017!
IUI #8 04/15- BFN

Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

ah, yeah. 7 times with an RE and cryo sperm is very expensive. I think each of our IUI RE cycles was about $2500

TTC #1: BFP Cycle #11 IVF (2014)
TTC #2: IVF April 2017
             BFP: FET Due February 2018

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Feeling quite encouraged today! So last month on CD14 after using Clomid days 3-7 I had 0 measurable follicles so a I started taking a supplement that I ordered but hadn't arrived in time to start for that cycle so I started the Clomid instead. Within 5 days I got EWCM so I went back for an U/S and there was an 18mm follicle. I wrote that month off to coincidence.  Now this month we aren't trying so I started the supplement DIM-PLUS again the first day of my cycle and yesterday on CD14 I had gobs of EWCM and when I tested last night the OPK was super close to positive.  When I tested this morning it came up positive immediately! Could be coincidence again but I haven't done anything else differently. I was diagnosed with PCOS several years ago and had been on Glumetza (a form of Metformin) for over 2 years and have still had long cycles.  Even with Clomid day 18-20 is normal for me for ovulation. Without Clomid it can go towards day 22-25 so to have a surge on CD15 is a big deal for me and I'm hoping it's not just a fluke! smile Hoping things work out with the known donor so we can try in a month or so!

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IUI #1- 07/12-BFN, IUI #2 08/12-BFN, ICI at home 10/12- BFN, Back to Back IUI #3 08/13-BFN, IUI #4 09/13-BFN, IUI #5 03/14- BFN, IUI #6 05/14- BFN, IUI #7 06/14-BFN
KD-10/14-BFN KD-12/14-BFN IUI #8 3/15 BFN, IUI #9 4/15 BFN, IUI #10 6/17 BFN
Potential Adoptive Parents- Baby Due November 2017!
IUI #8 04/15- BFN

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It's so funny the effect our dreams can have on us.  I've been having pretty crazy vivid dreams for the past few weeks anyway but last night I had two separate dreams about finding out I was pregnant later in my pregnancy.  The first one I had gone to the doc to confirm ovulation was near and instead there was a baby. The doc was in a hurry so he didn't tell me how far along I was or anything though I begged him to do the u/s again and he wouldn't.  He did slip and tell me it was a boy however. So I wake up and go to the bathroom then come back and go back to sleep. This time I dreamed that I decided to take a pregnancy test even though I knew I wasn't pregnant because my body had felt off and it came back "pregnant 11 weeks"  and apparently it had some type of technology that you plugged it into the computer and it gave you more info and it also told me I was having a boy. So I wake up this morning and even though I knew for sure the test would be negative (which need less to say it was) I just had to take a test with my dreams being so crazy. The funny thing is that I would have been close to 11 weeks had my last IUI worked.

We meet out potential known donor next Sunday. I'm really hoping this arrangement works out. We are still trying to figure out if we want to try a cycle or two with him (considering we go through with the agreement) or if we want to go ahead and get the process going. I still am completely overwhelmed with the thought of opening that paperwork again....

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IUI #1- 07/12-BFN, IUI #2 08/12-BFN, ICI at home 10/12- BFN, Back to Back IUI #3 08/13-BFN, IUI #4 09/13-BFN, IUI #5 03/14- BFN, IUI #6 05/14- BFN, IUI #7 06/14-BFN
KD-10/14-BFN KD-12/14-BFN IUI #8 3/15 BFN, IUI #9 4/15 BFN, IUI #10 6/17 BFN
Potential Adoptive Parents- Baby Due November 2017!
IUI #8 04/15- BFN

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So we met with our potential known donor today and it went great! We absolutely love him and feel like this could be a really good fit. We are going to take the next few days to think it over and he is as well, but if we both agree we will be on our way! The one thing my wife and I are in disagreement with right now is his level of involvement.  While I feel like we should make it an 18 year old decision, my wife feels like he should be able to see the child a couple of times a year but while I feel like he is trustworthy,  I feel like it opens us up to the potential of future visitation issues. We are going to talk it over some more but I'm definitely a "what if" kind of person and can just think of a million scenarios that could happen. My wife is of the mindset that taking the mystery out of the donor's identity will make it better for the child and us in the long run.  We have a lot of thinking and talking to do before finalizing the contract.

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IUI #1- 07/12-BFN, IUI #2 08/12-BFN, ICI at home 10/12- BFN, Back to Back IUI #3 08/13-BFN, IUI #4 09/13-BFN, IUI #5 03/14- BFN, IUI #6 05/14- BFN, IUI #7 06/14-BFN
KD-10/14-BFN KD-12/14-BFN IUI #8 3/15 BFN, IUI #9 4/15 BFN, IUI #10 6/17 BFN
Potential Adoptive Parents- Baby Due November 2017!
IUI #8 04/15- BFN

74 (edited by ana8284 2014-08-18 06:38:41)

Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

Well I think we have come to a conclusion about the KD contact that both my wife and I are both happy with. Now we are just waiting to see if the donor agrees.

So what we have decided is to only have pictures and updates sent to the donor but no physical contact UNTIL the child asks about him or the child turns 18 whichever comes first. Doing that keeps us open and honest with our child, but gives us enough time to establish our roles as parents without a third party involved. Also by the time the child is old enough to ask, they will hopefully be old enough to have a better understanding about what the donor's role was in bringing them into this world, but understand that we are his/her parents. So now we are giving the KD time to think about this, we will redraft the contract if he agrees and be on our way hopefully!

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Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

I haven't heard anything back from our KD yet about whether he agrees to the terms or not. Part of me wants to text him just to make sure he got the e-mail but the other part of me doesn't want to seem pushy etc so I'm not going to. I'm glad he's taking time to think about it even though I'm on pins and needles waiting to find out. I'd rather him really think about it now instead of making a hasty decision that he regrets. If he decides he can't do it without immediate contact then we will of course respect his decision and not think any less of him, but will probably not go the known donor route with anyone else. Then it will be back to the drawing board again!

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Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

Eeek! Cautiously optimistic, but I talked to our KD this afternoon and he is in agreement with our terms so we are on our way! Next step is STD testing and contract signing, if all of that goes well we will hopefully be able to start trying next month! I have also given him a bottle of Fertiliaid for Men. While I know that even if all of our steps are perfect that there is no guarantee that it will work I'm just happy to have some hope!

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Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

So we are meeting with our KD to have the paperwork signed this weekend, he goes for his examination and STD testing next week and then it's on! I'm still waiting to ovulate this month, apparently last month with my new supplement was a fluke with my ovulation day coming early. It's okay though, as long as ovulation cooperates next month when we try, it's allowed to be late this month. Just so glad to have some renewed hope. I know there is still no guarantee and I'm not getting my hopes up, but I'm excited to try something new! smile

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Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

So annoyed. I was so hopeful that the DIM was my miracle product, but here I sit on CD 23 with no surge. We weren't trying in August, but we do plan to start trying with our KD this month. It's now looking like it will be October before we can try and that makes things challenging as well as our first niece is due October 5th. Seeing as our donor is in DC we can't be in two places at once if our niece makes her arrival when I ovulate.  We started Whole 30 today and I'm hopeful that the clean eating for at least the next 30 days will help. Just wish that for once my body would cooperate with me!

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Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

So I FINALLY got my surge this month on Friday evening CD25, I swear I thought I was going to have an anovulatory month which stunk since we are hoping to try next cycle. So now it looks like I won't ovulate again until early October which I'm hoping will not coincide with our niece's birth but knowing my luck it's definitely possible! I called my RE this morning and asked for a Clomid prescription to hopefully narrow our window a bit especially for our KD's sake. The NP made it sound like they will do it but wants me to call back the 1st day of my cycle so I don't know whether they are going to or not. My DW on the other hand shocked me this weekend by telling me that if I'm not able to conceive after a few months that she would be willing to try. She has always been completely against wanting to carry and part of me actually kind of was happy about that as silly as it sounds, I think it would be kind of hard on me especially if she got pregnant quickly knowing how badly I wanted to carry. But at the end of the day, I know that whether it comes from me, her or we eventually end up adopting, at least we will have fulfilled our dreams of becoming moms.

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KD-10/14-BFN KD-12/14-BFN IUI #8 3/15 BFN, IUI #9 4/15 BFN, IUI #10 6/17 BFN
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Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

Hi! Just thinking about you and wondering how you are....I am excited about all of your recent news/changes. Good luck with the upcoming month!

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TTC #2: since June 2016...

Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

Aww thanks patienceisavirtue! And so excited for you hitting the big 21 weeks! We are hopeful that the change might be just what we need. Luckily I've got a very supportive boss who is really behind us so he understands I might have to leave work for a couple of days at the drop of a hat. It's pretty weird talking about my ovulation schedule with my boss but hey I got to do what I've got to do. I'm unfortunately down with an upper respiratory infection right now and just started getting AF cramps so I'm not a very happy camper right now.

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Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

Well AF came right on time Saturday, thus begins the waiting game for ovulation so we can pack our bags and make the 2 hour drive to meet our Known Donor. I'm a bit nervous thinking about it. The one and only time we tried at home with frozen sperm was a complete disaster so I can only imagine what it's going to be like with the fresh.  I'm excited though, the doc called in my Clomid prescription this morning so I will start it tomorrow and hopefully that will narrow down my ovulation window some. I've also been doing the Whole 30 Eating Plan this month more for general help than anything and I've lost almost 13 pounds and am feeling pretty good health wise. I plan to continue a Paleo type diet plan after the 30th when my 30 days is up and I'm hoping it will have a positive effect on my fertility as well. Our KD is very fit and is vegan so I'm hoping his good health will produce some strong swimmers!

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Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

Awww, I hope you feel better soon! Maybe the lowered immunity will help with conception... wink That is awesome about the supportive boss!

Good luck with using the fresh swimmers and laugh a lot if things are going a little crazy!

TTC #1: 1-5 BFN; 6- BFP
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Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

Starting Clomid today, decided to do days 5-9 this time instead of 3-7 because as I was thinking back on my old RE appointments I always seemed to have bigger and more follicles with this regimen. I always had at least 2 on days 5-9 where as with days 3-7 I've always only had 1 and they have been smaller. I also by chance ran across a post last night saying that you shouldn't drink Fertilitea with Clomid which prompted me to look up the other supplements I've been taking and have decided to only take my vitamins this round with the Clomid. Who knows what actually works or doesn't work, but I figured that I would try it this way this time. I'm getting excited but as always, trying to remain cautiously optimistic as I've been let down so many times in the past. I suppose only time will tell!

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Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

So the only rule I have broken on the Whole 30 program is stepping on the scale. While of course my goal is my overall health and training my body to eat better quality foods with a higher nutritional value, other than having problems getting pregnant I don't really suffer with any other ongoing medical conditions for me to be able to gauge whether or not the meal plan is helping them. The scale is one way for me to see that what I'm doing is not in vain and hopefully soon it will reflect in my ability to get pregnant as well. But all of that to say, I'm very excited that as of this morning I have lost 14.2 lbs so far this month! I have another 4 days of the program (though I think I'm going to stay on it completely for at least another month) but I can definitely see what a diffence it is making, not only in my weight but in the way that I view food. Before, I would have a big lunch and then start getting hunger pains by 3. Now I'm full with a very sensible smaller lunch and sometimes I might want a piece of fruit or something in the afternoon, but most of the time it stays in my lunchbox. No matter what this is definitely helping my health, but I hope that it results in a BFP too!

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Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

So I had a random thought today. Our KD as I've mentioned lives about 2 hours away but he has always said that if ovulation happens on a weekend that he would be happy to come to us. So I got to thinking that next weekend will put me at CD 15-16. Now normally with Clomid I'm a day 18-19 girl but since it was so close I thought that maybe I would ask him to come down and do one try, for two reasons since fresh sperm lives longer then we would already have one attempt under our belt and since this is new territory for both of us, we figured that no matter what it was good to have a trial run. We may end up in DC a day or two later and that's fine but just thought I would have a go at it! And who knows the combination of my weight loss and Clomid might make things speed up a bit so we might be meant to do it then anyway. Here goes nothing!

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Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

So my last day of Whole 30 was yesterday and I lost 16.2 lbs during the month of September! Very happy with my accomplishment and I plan to kleep going. It can't do anything but help! I am moving more to a Paleo type platform instead of strictly Whole 30 but they really aren't that much different. I made some Paleo brownies last night as my sweet tooth really started calling the last couple of days and they turned out really good! Sure they aren't chalked full of sugar and other carboliciousness (though I'm sure the calorie content is still quite high) but it helped curb the craving without introducing grain products back into my diet. Now fingers crossed that the weight loss and better eating habits will help with the PCOS and fertility!

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Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

Well still no LH surge and no more than a few drops of EWCM I think it's probably a little too early. We did do a trial run with our donor today which went pretty smoothly, I must have been away from guys for a long time as I really thought there would be more special sauce but I asked Google after and it looks like it was about an average amount haha. So now just waiting to surge and we will get to trying! I'm still experiencing cramping and bloating for some reason. Last night it was pretty strong but today more just feels like I had a good about work out. Not sure why that's happening guess it could relate to the clomid.

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KD-10/14-BFN KD-12/14-BFN IUI #8 3/15 BFN, IUI #9 4/15 BFN, IUI #10 6/17 BFN
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Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

Well started to get a decent amount of EWCM this morning so hopefully ovulation is right around the corner! Makes me glad that we went ahead and did the trial run yesterday, especially since it's fresh maybe that might boost our odds a little. Still having cramping and bloating which is odd, but nothing really suprises me with my body. Now just trying to get this surge going and find a decently priced hotel room at the last minute which is seeming to be rather difficult, I guess because congress is back in session but everything seems to be booked up!

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KD-10/14-BFN KD-12/14-BFN IUI #8 3/15 BFN, IUI #9 4/15 BFN, IUI #10 6/17 BFN
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IUI #8 04/15- BFN

Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

Well here we are TWW! It's so weird, I've been through this so many times now and it feels so familiar but at the same time it feels brand new. We did the first insem on Wednesday night and things went well. We did a second one Thursday night and the amount of semen our KD produced was very scant, so I'm hoping between the two tries that one of them made it with the right timing. My temp rose this morning and now my boobs are killing me so it does seem like we got in the correct ovulation window, just praying that this works. Our state granted same sex marriages Monday and second parent adoptions today, so what a great week to conceive. Trying to stay grounded, but I'm just praying so hard that this worked.

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KD-10/14-BFN KD-12/14-BFN IUI #8 3/15 BFN, IUI #9 4/15 BFN, IUI #10 6/17 BFN
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IUI #8 04/15- BFN

Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

Well here we are 5dpi, not really sure how I feel yet, my nips are still sore, but that's likely ovulation and I had some tummy troubles last night but also likely unrelated. The part of me that wants to feel optimistic is overshadowed in a way from all of my previous disappointments. Also, while I know it only takes one, the volume for both tries was pretty small but especially the second try. Right now I feel pretty neutral which I guess in some ways is the best way to feel at this point in the game. Just trying to get through the next 9 days, hopefully with two beautiful lines at the end!

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IUI #1- 07/12-BFN, IUI #2 08/12-BFN, ICI at home 10/12- BFN, Back to Back IUI #3 08/13-BFN, IUI #4 09/13-BFN, IUI #5 03/14- BFN, IUI #6 05/14- BFN, IUI #7 06/14-BFN
KD-10/14-BFN KD-12/14-BFN IUI #8 3/15 BFN, IUI #9 4/15 BFN, IUI #10 6/17 BFN
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Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

6dpi today, getting closer to knowing whether or not this time was successful! Still feeling good, nips still sore but don't seem to be quite as sore as they were (although the right one is much more sore than the left haha). The only thing that is really bugging me right now is that the roof of my mouth keeps itching. Mostly at night for the last two nights but it's doing it again today, I've woken myself up the last two nights scratching it with my tounge. While of course I've had a tickle or two before, I don't remember ever having this. Dr. Google says that it's allergy related but I don't have any known allergies and I haven't eaten anything different etc. It's so annoying especially at night! Anywho, here's hoping to some positive news in a few days. I keep daydreaming about announcing my pregnancy on Christmas Eve with my family and how I would go about surprising my mom, but then the other part of me has to bring myself back down to Earth.

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KD-10/14-BFN KD-12/14-BFN IUI #8 3/15 BFN, IUI #9 4/15 BFN, IUI #10 6/17 BFN
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Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

7dpi today, I know it's way to early and I shouldn't have but I tested on one of my IC's this morning. BFN of course, but I have an addiction to peeing on things haha. My nips are continuing to get less sensitive but the right one is still pretty tender when touched. As much as I try not to pay attention to signs (since I've had every one in the book), i'm hoping that this isn't a bad sign. Hope is a strange thing, on one hand it's the most empowering thing you can have, on the other it's the most debilitating. My sister-in-law is being induced today so our first niece should be here any time now, and as excited as I am to meet her, it still shakes my soul that she is coming from a 19 year old who had no intentions of getting pregnant right now.

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KD-10/14-BFN KD-12/14-BFN IUI #8 3/15 BFN, IUI #9 4/15 BFN, IUI #10 6/17 BFN
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IUI #8 04/15- BFN

94 (edited by ana8284 2014-10-16 05:57:13)

Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

8dpi- well nips have officially stopped hurting so officially no "symptoms". I know it's early but as I said before I have a POAS addition, BFN again but I keep getting evap lines on the ICs so that stinks. As of 12:52 this morning my wife and I officially became aunts, so we are heading down there today after work to get some baby cuddles.

I did have one piece of excellent news yesterday, my wife and I were chosen to be a featured couple in a local 5k fundraising race called the Race to Parenthood. All of the proceeds are divided among the featured couples for fertility treatments or adoption. We are so thrilled that we might actually be able to afford IVF if we don't succeed with our KD. It's so great and such an honor to be chosen, we are also the first LGBT couple to be chosen so that is a huge honor. At least if things don't work out we have some added hope!

Our profile hasn't been added yet, but here is info on the race!
http://theracetoparenthood5k.com/

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KD-10/14-BFN KD-12/14-BFN IUI #8 3/15 BFN, IUI #9 4/15 BFN, IUI #10 6/17 BFN
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IUI #8 04/15- BFN

Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

9dpi and had a pretty significant temp drop this morning. But I'm trying not to read to much into it as this is the first cycle I have charted where we actually insemenated, and I took my temperature the first time I woke up to use the bathroom this morning at 3am where as I usually will go to the bathroom between 2-4:30 and then take my temp when I get up at 6:30. But I took it yesterday at 4:30 (the second time I got up to use the bathroom) so I think the info may be skewed. Otherwise nothing of note, trying to keep spirits high but not expecting too much out of this cycle. In other news we met our niece last night and she is adorable!

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IUI #1- 07/12-BFN, IUI #2 08/12-BFN, ICI at home 10/12- BFN, Back to Back IUI #3 08/13-BFN, IUI #4 09/13-BFN, IUI #5 03/14- BFN, IUI #6 05/14- BFN, IUI #7 06/14-BFN
KD-10/14-BFN KD-12/14-BFN IUI #8 3/15 BFN, IUI #9 4/15 BFN, IUI #10 6/17 BFN
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IUI #8 04/15- BFN

Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

I know I shouldn't be quite yet, but I'm feeling pretty discouraged today. While I know an implantation dip isn't exactly scientific and can happen even if you aren't pregnant, I really expected to have a higher temp when I temped this morning and was really hopeful to maybe get my BFP tomorrow or Monday. However my temp was even lower this morning (97.90 yesterday 97.77 today) so my optimism is going down a bit. I will say though it seems a bit early for my temp to be dropping. I'm only on CD 10 today and while this is my first time charting that we've actually tried, I have temped regularly for the past couple of months to try to get the hang of it and my temp didn't drop until a minimum of the day before my period. Needless to say BFN this morning. Just so happy that I have the race in the next few months, knowing that financial support will be there is huge for me. One of my sorority sisters is getting married this evening, so at least it will be good to hang out with some old friends for a while tonight.

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KD-10/14-BFN KD-12/14-BFN IUI #8 3/15 BFN, IUI #9 4/15 BFN, IUI #10 6/17 BFN
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IUI #8 04/15- BFN

97 (edited by ana8284 2014-10-19 03:42:25)

Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

So trying not to get my hopes up, I feel like I would be crushed if I did. So temp went back up this morning paired with the faintest second line on an IC definitely different than the evaps I've been seeing on them. However I dipped a FRER in the same urine and it was stark white. I had this happen a couple of months back on an IC and then nada so I'm just praying I'm not setting myself up for another disappointment. Please keep me in your thoughts/prayers that this isn't a fluke!

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IUI #1- 07/12-BFN, IUI #2 08/12-BFN, ICI at home 10/12- BFN, Back to Back IUI #3 08/13-BFN, IUI #4 09/13-BFN, IUI #5 03/14- BFN, IUI #6 05/14- BFN, IUI #7 06/14-BFN
KD-10/14-BFN KD-12/14-BFN IUI #8 3/15 BFN, IUI #9 4/15 BFN, IUI #10 6/17 BFN
Potential Adoptive Parents- Baby Due November 2017!
IUI #8 04/15- BFN

Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

Thinking of you!!! I hope that internet cheapie isn't a lying SOB.

TTC #1: 1-5 BFN; 6- BFP
TTC #2: since June 2016...

Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

FX for you!!!

TTC since September 2007 - 8 donor insems in 2012, all BFN. DH had varicocele repair #2 1/3/14.
It worked! Two clomid cycles and two IUI's with injectables all BFN, on to IVF! 3dt of 2 perfect embryos on 12/15/14, BFP 7dp3dt! Frederick Lars born at 37 weeks on 8/15/15!! FET for #2 on 9/29/16 - BFP 5dp5dt!! Bertram Wilder and Mabel Moon born at 28.4 weeks on 3/29/17!

Re: Hoping for a baby for our 5th anniversary....

I should have known it was too good to be true and as much as I tried not to get my hopes up, of course I did anyway. I dreamed of waking my wife up this morning to announce to her it had finally worked and that we were going to be moms. Instead, I woke up to a huge temperature drop AGAIN (98.23 yesterday, 97.77 today) and a stark white test. This never gets any easier, every time we try I think "okay I know what to expect now and I'm not going to drive myself crazy", just to end up testing and getting disappointed and reading into things. I wish I didn't have to go to work today, I could really use a few more hours in bed. I'm 12 dpo today, so I guess I will just be expecting AF in a couple of days. Just praying for strength and to not lose faith.

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IUI #1- 07/12-BFN, IUI #2 08/12-BFN, ICI at home 10/12- BFN, Back to Back IUI #3 08/13-BFN, IUI #4 09/13-BFN, IUI #5 03/14- BFN, IUI #6 05/14- BFN, IUI #7 06/14-BFN
KD-10/14-BFN KD-12/14-BFN IUI #8 3/15 BFN, IUI #9 4/15 BFN, IUI #10 6/17 BFN
Potential Adoptive Parents- Baby Due November 2017!
IUI #8 04/15- BFN