Topic: Still. Waiting. (vent)
This is absolute Hell. I should have been 9weeks 1day today... but here I sit at home, on a gorgeous day no less, waiting for my miscarriage to start. I'm annoyed that tomorrow is a holiday, otherwise I'd call my OB and request meds to get things started, even though I've read horror stories about the effects. I just want this over with. I've gone through all the stages of grief, I've accepted that my baby has passed away.
So far the herb combination (tablets) my Chinese medicine doc gave me have done nothing. I'm afraid to get a D & C because of the risks of scarring/puncture of the uterus. In 2 weeks my wife & I are going on a cruise with her mom & one of my best friends...we bought the cruise almost a year ago. I don't want the miscarriage to happen then...we paid too much $$ for me to be miserable & miscarrying on a cruise ship. Can't stop asking why...why why why must this be happening. Why is my body holding on to this baby when it is clearly not alive anymore. OK... for those that have read this far, thanks for letting me vent.
(SEE UPDATE NEAR BOTTOM)