*hugs* I identify with this so much - took us a year to get our first BFP, and it was such a LONG year full of setbacks and waiting and waiting and waiting. One of the things I was most happy about was the feeling that the wait was over and life was finally going to move forward... and that is making the loss all the more difficult. Knowing we have to wait for months before we can even make another try is driving me crazy.
I was so sure that 2015 was going to be our year, and that by Christmas we'd have a baby in our family. And with our BFP I was over the moon thinking surely it was our turn at last. So I completely get where you're coming from. I don't know that I can offer any good advice on distracting oneself from it, as I'm still trying to figure out how to do that myself. All I can think about is when will we get to try again? Will it work the next time? Do we have any chance at a 2015 baby? Are we going to be going through this for another year? Can we even afford to try more than once this year? Are we going to run out of money without ever seeing a baby?
It's awful. And I can't seem to find joy or distraction in any of the things in my life, even things I used to love. It's like all the color has gone out of the world. Right now I'm trying to focus on the things I HAVE to do, work and chores and whatnot. At least then I'm busy, if not happy, and it makes the days go by faster.
I do envy you guys for having E, though. <3 And I hope that things will get better for you guys, and that this year will be YOUR year for adding to your family!
Early ovarian failure. 4 failed ICIs, 6 failed IUIs. Donor Egg IVF in Greece
: IVF#1 12/2014 - BFP
, miscarried at 6WK3D. IVF #2 4/2015 - BFN
. IVF#3 7/2015 - BFP
. Baby boy Searc born 4/8/16 - 9lbs, 2 oz <3TTC Blog