Topic: I was going to have my baby next weekend...

Yesterday was so awful for me. The emotions seemed to just hit me out of nowhere. I lost my baby in December, my EDD was 7/05. I knew it wasn't going to be easy but I didn't expect to feel this horrible! I'm back to crying all day  sad I hate this..

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I am sorry. My heart goes out for you. I too have those moments especially after the first anniversary of my due dates that it hit me. Firsts of everything...like holidays were awful too. I (and several women I know) have found little private ways to remember that baby...there are special pieces of jewelry. I know many women who have done that. Even e-bay has some inexpensive ones. I know someone who planted a tree. Someone releases balloons on the anniversary of the day she lost her baby. There are also support groups for women who have lost babies to miscarriage or stillbirth. Our babies were real and loved from the moment of conception.

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I'm so sorry.  I can't even imagine the emotional turmoil sad   Sending hugs your way.

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My journey now is leading to international adoption...the best of luck to all you mommies out there!

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I am so, so sorry sad I am thinking of you and praying that you get your rainbow baby soon. <3 <3 <3

TTC since September 2007 - 8 donor insems in 2012, all BFN. DH had varicocele repair #2 1/3/14.
It worked! Two clomid cycles and two IUI's with injectables all BFN, on to IVF! 3dt of 2 perfect embryos on 12/15/14, BFP 7dp3dt! Frederick Lars born at 37 weeks on 8/15/15!! FET for #2 on 9/29/16 - BFP 5dp5dt!! Bertram Wilder and Mabel Moon born at 28.4 weeks on 3/29/17!

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I am so sorry. sad

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Thank you all for the kind words.

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I feel your heartbreak. I'm so sorry. I hate that we have to go through this... my due date (from 1st miscarriage) was April 4th this year....that day was terrible.  my due date (from 2nd miscarriage) is Aug. 9th. I keep seeing women who are as pregnant as I would have been with the baby due is August...it's very very difficult & my eyes fill with tears on some days... but we will continue to try, and won't give up until we have our rainbow baby! Hugs to you.

1st daughter born 9/26/2013 (bfp 2nd attempt at home ICI)
2nd daughter born 3/8/2016 (bfp after 7 attempts at home ICI, 2 miscarriages, 1 D&C)
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I'm so sorry you have to go through this...you are in my thoughts.

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TTC from 06/2015...Baby M born 11/24/16!

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My due date for the pregnancy I miscarried is this month too.  Since I'm pregnant again that is making it somewhat easier but there is still definitely a major sadness and sense of loss there approaching the due date, since I didn't love that baby any less than the one I'm currently carrying.  I think my MC was due to having a high fever so quite possibly I would've kept it if I hadn't gotten sick. The idea of having likely miscarried a healthy baby is distressing.  I hope we both end up getting our rainbow babies. Sending you good thoughts for getting through this.

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*hugs* Oh guys my heart is with you. I hope your next BFP comes very soon and brings you your take-home baby <3

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Early ovarian failure. 4 failed ICIs, 6 failed IUIs. Donor Egg IVF in Greece: IVF#1 12/2014 - BFP, miscarried at 6WK3D. IVF #2 4/2015 - BFN. IVF#3 7/2015 - BFP. Baby boy Searc born 4/8/16 - 9lbs, 2 oz <3

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